little thing about life

Anak-anak kecil itu berlarian menyusuri lorong sekolah. Sepertinya mereka bukan anak-anak kelas 1. Mereka tampak terlalu besar untuk murid kelas 1. Kulangkahkan kaki menuju gerombolan anak perempuan yang seluruhnya berwajah oriental. “Ruangan kelas 1 C di mana ya, Dek” tanyaku setelah salah satu dari mereka memandang wajahku. “Kelas satu di sana!” Gadis oriental itu menunjukkan tangannya pada jajaran kelas di dekat tangga. “Oh, makasih ya, Dek,” sahutku sambil tersenyum. Sejenak aku terhenyak memandangi gadis kecil berkulit kuning langsat dengan geligi yang berjajar rapi itu. Rambutnya indah tergerai menutupi lehernya yang jenjang. Sejenak aku mampu membayangkan betapa cantiknya ia kala dewasa nanti. Kembali kulangkahkan kakiku, saat ini menuju jajaran ruangan kelas yang ditunjuk gadis tadi. Dan sesampainya di ruang kelas 1 C, para orang tua sudah duduk mengantri di depan kelas. Baiklah, aku yang termuda di sini. Kemudian aku berjalan-jalan untuk melihat sekeliling. Kulongok s...

Kehidupan terasa berlalu begitu cepat, begitu saja. Seolah baru beberapa tahun yang lalu aku menerbangkan layang-layang tinggi-tinggi di sebuah sawah di sudut kota Jogja, seolah baru beberapa tahun yang lalu aku seringkali memeluk ibu sepulang dari sekolah, seolah baru beberapa tahun yang lalu aku suka duduk tepat di belakang kemudi motor saat ayahku mengendara, seolah baru beberapa tahun yang lalu aku sering menahan kantuk untuk menanti ayah pulang dari perantauan. Ternyata waktu telah berlalu begitu cepat. Tahun demi tahun berlalu. Saat masih kanak-kanak, ingin rasanya menjadi dewasa. Pasti menyenangkan sekali. Tidak ada omelan ibu yang menyuruhmu tidur siang, tidak ada pula ocehan ibu yang terus menerus mengingatkanmu makan, atau supaya tidak di luar rumah selepas adzan maghrib berkumandang. Tidak ada suruhan ibu untuk mengerjakan pekerjaan rumah di malam hari. Tidak ada lagi bangun pagi saat bumi masih berselimut kabut dan melawan air dingin untuk pergi ke sekolah. Alangkah me...

When you’re getting older, your parents are getting older too. And when you’re far away from home, you realize that you have nothing more precious than your parents, mom and dad. My dad is 52 years old and my mom is 47 years old right now. I’m 21 and I can’t give anything for them yet. This is pathetic. I remember when I was a kid, I felt like my life is in their arms. Their arms are the best place in the world. All of worries, tears, are suddenly gone when I lay my head on their arms. They’re the most precious people in life, and God please don’t take them away from me. I need them. I don’t know how to face this harsh world without them. I want them to live forever. Sometimes I act like I don’t need them, and now I realize how bad I am. I’ve been very bad, really really bad. My dad told me I have to be better than him. He’s a great man, and I’m wondering how do I can be better than him? I can’t be like him, I’m just… not that great. And I wish someday I could show ...

i'm wondering how does it feel to be a father? i'm not a father yet, i dont have a wife, and i don't have a kid but i know exactly how does it feel it must be amazing that moment when you're sitting beside you wife's bed in a hospital, you hold her hand warmly, then you kiss her forehead and whisper in her ear, "thanks to bring this pretty little angel from the heaven to the world, honey.." then that pretty little angel is growing old with you, then she calls you "daddy" and you swear to yourself, "i will be the best daddy for you, i will do everything for you, i will die for you, i will give my whole world just for your happiness" and nothing can buy her laugh and her happiness dear my future children, i'm not your perfect daddy but as long as i live, i will keep you from this wild world my shoulders are always available for you everytime you need them and i will teach you about life. life is rough, so...

what is the best job in the world? it's radio announcer. all you have to do is only sit and listen to your favourite songs, and you'll be paid for that. but unfortunately i've made a decision. i decided to end everything just a week ago, sorry but i have to do that. from the deepest of my heart, i seriously don't want to end this. this is such a hard decision for me, a decision which i know i will regret it. it was such amazing 4 months to join with you guys. thanks for everything. thanks for this very warm friendship, i will never forget it. you guys will stay in my heart, forever...

hi, i'm a radio announcer :D. this photo was taken on October 14th.

with my family. mom, dad, brother. thanks to keep staying with me for this 20 years